For many years, I have seen therapists, psychologists, psychiatrists, as well as other professionals to help me navigate through my journey of healing. I have to say that I have worked with exceptional individuals who did amazing work to help me.
The problem was I could not move forward. I was often frozen in time. Living and coping with triggers, depression, manic episodes, anxiety as well as panic attacks. As much as I disliked all the above, I accepted that this was my life. I was diagnosed with PTSD, bipolar, and borderline personality disorder. The weight of that alone adding to what I experienced daily was so heavy. Some of those who have worked with me, 3 doctors in particular, have told me, it’s in the past move on.
I felt like there was something more to my diagnosis because I couldn’t move on. That also added to my every day ability to function. It’s important for me to share that information because there is such a huge important element missing from our available mental health services. For a professional who is working in our mental health system to tell me to forget about it and move on, I am not surprised as to why our system is so broken. Why so many people feel hopeless, helpless and feel they can’t reach out.
Then I met Cathy. I had not heard of Logosynthesis. I was quickly intrigued by her work. I was drawn to her. I was drawn to what she was saying. At this stage in my journey, I was not scared to try something new.
Logosynthesis was an awakening for me. Cathy provided for me a safe and comfortable environment. Logosynthesis was not just repeating sentences. It is in my experience an emotional, mental and physical experience. I could physically feel the energy going through my body. At times overwhelming however I could hear Cathy’s calming and reassuring voice. I could feel her presence as I was letting the words work. In my situation, trust is unfamiliar and does not come easy. I completely trusted her and trusted the work she was doing.
I have been working with Cathy for several months now. For the first time in over 20 years, I can honestly say, I am moving forward. I don’t feel frozen like I did. I compare it to being a frozen bottle of water that is starting to thaw. There is now movement in that ice.
I have a number of triggers that have simply disappeared. I never thought that to be possible. I had accepted that triggers were part of my everyday life …. I no longer accept that. I know there is more to life than pain, suffering, disassociation. The diagnosis given to me is no longer as limiting and heavy to carry. I am feeling freedom. I cope better. I am more accepting of my emotions. And I know I can contact Cathy when I am struggling.
I am so grateful for my coach, Cathy. She believes in the process, the work and she believes in her clients.